Over the weekend I was stressing over the exam I had today (for Ms S’s subject). As I organised my notes I realised I was missing one topic so I panicked and e-mailed the most rambly, desperate cry for help for the documents I lost. 

She replied to me

:D ahh, she has no idea how happy that little message at the end made me.

(also sorry I haven’t been posting much lately, it’s mostly due to being too busy with revision. I’m now back to regularly fangirling over my teachers/fangirling about your teachers with you.)

Little moments.

There are times when I feel like I could actually get over this “crush” and re-evaluate what I feel… a few of my friends remind me of how silly these things are, and that I would get over it once I leave school. And I believe them.

But then little moments lure me back in.

I would hand her back something I borrowed and our hands would brush briefly. She wouldn’t really think any of it, but I stupidly think about it more than I should to the point where my brain conjures up idiotic fantasies. 

FUUUUUUUU- SHE GAVE ME A CHRISTMAS CARD. It has a snowman at the front asdfghjk

She just tossed it to me while she walked past my table during the lesson and I calmly thanked her in response.

Though internally I was

It’s just small things like if someone says something she finds amusing and she does a little smile or giggle STOP BEING SO CUTE.

TC Appreciation Week.

Thank you to whoever came up with this idea.

I’m not necessarily a gift giving person, but she seems to be having a bad week so I went out and got her a few things:

-Some chocolate. (She usually talks about craving chocolate)

-A drink she really likes.

-A pack of pink elephant shaped sticky notes. (her computer background is a picture of an elephant which I constantly point out to her)

I handed it to her at the end of the lesson and she smiled at me and said it was all of her favourite things which made me feel happy and accomplished that I kept myself together without randomly combusting through the exchange.

But then she hugged me.

There’s a new teacher trying to put the moves on Ms S. He literally just knocks on the door during lessons asking for pens, papers and, on one occasion, a chair. He came again today and Ms S was like “Do you not own any stationery?”

Maybe he really just doesn’t own any pens.

Still

I was chatting with Ms S during break when my friend literally hug ATTACKED me from behind… it was so shocking that I felt my life flash before my eyes.

I almost fell on her (almost) but I didn’t. 

She just laughed while I died in humiliation. 

I went to this student gathering thing organised in like a Uni lecture hall… with literally hundreds of people. The person leading it was on the stage and asked the question “What is the reason that some people enjoy their lessons?” and someone actually yelled “BECAUSE THE TEACHER IS FIT.” 

And all I could think of was… one of my people is in this hall, I must ask for their tumblr url. 

 I was speaking to my friends when Ms S walked past and I guess I stopped speaking and smiled at her with heart shaped eyes or whatever.

Friend 1: Are you in love with Ms S or something?

Me: What..

Friend 2: You’re totally in love with Ms S!

They know…